Je ne sais pas

I am slightly a control freak (My friend laughed at me last night when I told him that). I just prefer being in control of what goes on in my life. That's not too much to ask is it? Apparently it is, because sometimes I just have no idea what is going on. For instance, sometimes things will be really good and I feel like there is a possibility of progress and other times I will feel so confused and even a little hurt. I wish I just had the courage to take charge, to speak up when I feel like I have little control. Until I have that courage, my most repeated phrase will most likely continue to be "Je ne sais pas."