1 Sexy Boot

I would love to say that I successfully finished "7 Brides for 7 Brothers" without any major injury. I mean, I almost did, does that count? The first show of closing week, I rolled my foot when coming down from a lift/jump and instead of landing on the bottom of my foot like you're supposed to, I landed on the top of my foot. I wasn't about to let myself fall and ruin the show, so I made myself remain standing. No one in the audience could even tell anything had happened. Way to go me :)
The downside was that my entire weight landed on the top of my foot. Not good.

I finished that show and then did 3 more shows to finish up closing weekend. No one could tell I was injured during a show because I still did everything full out.

After it happened, my foot immediately swelled up and grew a huge goose egg. The next day, the bruise came out and now more than half of my foot is a very ugly greenish/brown/blue/black color.

Because Jeff loves me very much, he was so worried about me and he's making me take care of myself. So I went to a podiatrist to see what is actually wrong. Turns out I tore a couple ligaments in my foot, gave myself a Level 3 sprain, and possibly a stress fracture. I am stuck in a boot 24/7 for the the next few weeks. He says if I'm lucky, I might get to take it off for my wedding. Seriously, I could cry right now.

Bored to Tears

Have you ever thought, "Oh I wish I had free time or just some time where I could do nothing?" After these past two weeks I would say to you, don't wish too hard or you just might get it. Tomorrow will mark the end of week 2 of my unemployment. I am going nuts. Day after day I spend hours on end searching for jobs, applying for them, and then getting rejected by them--not that I really wanted any of those ones anyways, but still, rejection in any form kinda hurts.

Most of my life I have kept myself so ridiculously busy that I have barely had time to think! But that's how I like it. Now that I have too much time on my hands and too much time to think the boredom is really getting to me. In fact, I want to cry right now because I feel like I've been so unproductive. Which, if I may interject my own thoughts right here, is not really true. Each morning I wake up at 6 for ballroom practice and when I return, I make myself a really, really long "to do" list (with things such as scripture study, cleaning, reading, exercising, job hunting, etc) just to make sure I stay busy. But without something big like school or work to fill up most of my day, I feel like I'm just wasting my time. So back to me wanting to cry...yeah, I still want to. In fact I would do so right now if my roommates weren't here to see it.

"Sweet is the Peace"

Over the past couple of days I have been really antsy, ready for change. It's like I am too anxious inside to do anything but I feel even more anxious not doing anything! I'm feeling more than ready to head back to Utah and at the same time hesitant to go because it is my last semester at BYU and that comes with mixed emotions. I love my family dearly but sometimes there is so much petty bickering and complaining that I want to scream! Anyway, as you can tell, I have not been at peace for the last week or so. But today was different. "Why?" you may ask. The best response I can come up with is

"Sweet is the peace the gospel brings
To seeking minds and true.
With light refulgent on its wings,
It clears the human view" (LDS Hymn #14)

Today my mom and I went to the Temple. I haven't been in two months! I can't believe that I live so close to a temple and yet I hadn't taken the time to go. What a blessing it was to be there. It was exactly what my anxious soul needed. There was immediate peace when I walked in that building. I was only there for an hour, but sitting in that sacred place without any pressures from the outside world was incredible. They always have quite hymns playing in the background and the words of those hymns kept flowing into my mind, each bringing me greater peace and calming my worried heart. It did "clear my human view." Right now my temple experience is limited, but I cannot wait for the day when I can receive all the blessings from the temple and feel that even greater peace.