Mixed Feelings

I can't believe it; I go home in 1 week! I am so excited yet at the same time I am kind of sad. There are some people here that I will miss so much like my roommates and my best friends. I hope that the time and the distance won't diminish our friendships. Hopefully, we will stay in contact with each other and when I return we will all still be great friends; but time and distance tend to do funny things. I'm sure everyone has heard "Distance makes the heart grow fonder" but recently I heard a statement that I think rings more true than that, "Distance makes the fond heart wander."

There is this guy that I started falling for near the end of last semester. Really, nothing has happened--maybe nothing will, who knows. All I know is I can't believe it took me so long to realize that what I really want was in front of me the whole time. Maybe I've realized it too late and I missed my chance. Maybe distance will make the the heart grow fonder or maybe it will wander. Maybe by the time I get back he'll have found the love of his life and that'll be it. Maybe this, maybe that... I have to keep telling myself that I can't live my life focusing on"maybes" or "what ifs." I just need to have faith and trust it God's plan for me because as I'm seeing each day, following His plan brings so many blessings and so much happiness.