Have you ever thought, "Oh I wish I had free time or just some time where I could do nothing?" After these past two weeks I would say to you, don't wish too hard or you just might get it. Tomorrow will mark the end of week 2 of my unemployment. I am going nuts. Day after day I spend hours on end searching for jobs, applying for them, and then getting rejected by them--not that I really wanted any of those ones anyways, but still, rejection in any form kinda hurts.
Most of my life I have kept myself so ridiculously busy that I have barely had time to think! But that's how I like it. Now that I have too much time on my hands and too much time to think the boredom is really getting to me. In fact, I want to cry right now because I feel like I've been so unproductive. Which, if I may interject my own thoughts right here, is not really true. Each morning I wake up at 6 for ballroom practice and when I return, I make myself a really, really long "to do" list (with things such as scripture study, cleaning, reading, exercising, job hunting, etc) just to make sure I stay busy. But without something big like school or work to fill up most of my day, I feel like I'm just wasting my time. So back to me wanting to cry...yeah, I still want to. In fact I would do so right now if my roommates weren't here to see it.
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